The answer did not take too long after wrestling with this question for several weeks (which is not long). It comes down to delving into the emotions of God and beholding Him in his Sanctuary (Psalm 27:4). We use this language and verse so often in our community, that it can easily lose it's validity and importance.
There is only one person on this planet that can offer my heart to the Lord, and that is me. No other can have communion with God and delve into the depths of his emotions in a way that it affects my own heart except for me. He wants my gaze, my eyes and no one can offer them for me. My voice being what it is, is the exact voice that God wants to hear from me, and the only voice that he has given me. There really is only one person that can sing to Him with my specific voice, no other human has ever offered up a song to the Lord with my voice. This in itself is an offering that is undeniably unique; for throughout the ages no one has or can ever offer myself except for me.
This reasoning could sound very selfish, with a lot of "me, me, me". The problem with that argument is that the Lord constantly speaks to my heart saying, "I want you, you, you". It's as a marriage you see, the spouse needs the love of the other spouse, and there is nt other person that is meant to fulfill that love and desire.
In short, he wants me to know Him, He wants to be known; and I must put myself in the best position to know him and offer what I have to Him. I MUST know Him! I won't know Him better by being one of the best anointed teachers, musicians or worship leaders. I will know Him best by actively longing with all that I have; and that is all I have to give, and that is why I am in the House of Prayer...Everything else is just details.
